Hey, Where have I been?

I have been NOT around. I have had so much going on. Work, kids, hubby out of town, yadda,, yadda. Plus I got pregnant and miscarried. A lot of stuff, folks. Now, I have been thinking about school again and writing a book. You know, I don't know what I want to do, but survive. No, I want to do more than survive. My life is so...idk...just life. I want to know the meaning of it all. Is that ever possible? It would suck to never know--or yet worse, to know at the end. I bought a Phish CD for the first time ever. I dig them. Why didn't I look into them sooner? I heard of them when I was younger, but never interested. Boy, did I miss something. And I just watched a clip on youtube from David Letterman about the group. The CD I bought was their last CD because they had just announced (in 2004) that they were no longer performing together as a group. Talk about being late for something (a fad). The CD I bought has an intro titled Scents and Subtle Sounds. There is also a track titled the same. I love the intro version. Its so on-point to what I am about right now. Which, by the way is confusing to me. So its just a tip to the iceberg, but it explains a lot. I found the intro version on youtube. And for your enjoyment it goes into the actual song. Enjoy.

I like Jerks

I'm so glad to see that a long and tired phase of Hip Hop is passing by. And I was wondering, just the other day, when baggy pants would go out of style. Thank you. I still see sagging though--just no bagging. It looks like the 80's has hit this area too. I'm not complaining. I love the 80's. I loved baggy pants too, but it was getting old. And no, the 80's are not old--its coming back. I really like the Jerk style. It's Emo and Hip Hop. Punk. 80's. Just plain ol' new!

Apparently, according to the infamiss bobb blog, there is some JERK thing going on in California. I have to agree with her: Whatever it is, I like it.

Oh, and check out his cute shaved eyebrows. Reminds me of Middle School. And so does that name New Boyz--like New Kids.... I feel like a teeny bopper again. I can't wait to hear this up in the club!

Other Blogs and Being Jaded

I have been looking over other blogs--and following many of them. I find them chock full of ideas. I just love how now-a-days one can just find so many ideas and thoughts, and people putting themselves out there (for real or for show) at the tip of your fingers. I know, that reference was so cliche. But, I don't care. It's how I feel. And speaking of how I feel and cliche, I have been feeling jaded lately.

I have heard that term so many times and never understood it. I have tried to use it, but it never felt right--until I was actually jaded. Now, I know. Sometimes you don't know something until you are something. Or is that always the case; and we as know-it-all's think a book or dictionary or college degree enables to know without being. "Being jaded means.... and I know this because I read the definition in Websters new Slang Dictionary." The weird thing is I was sitting on my porch feeling all--well jaded--and that is exactly what thought popped into my head when I was trying to understand the way I felt inside. And it was like "I feel so jaded. This is jaded."

And you must wonder, "Why do you feel jaded lately, Lady J." Ooh, that's a tongue twister: jaded lately lady j, jaded lately lady j. OK, back to normal. Because I feel everything is on me. Or against me. Well, not against me, just not for me. And maybe not on me, just there in my way. A "why me" complex. Which is bad. That is victim thinking. And for those of you who know me, I have been in a positive flow. I have been trying to do self-learning and discovering. I want to know the "what else is out there." And victim thinking is not going to get me there. In the middle of my delayed Quarter-life Crisis, this is the one thing I have learned. Life is what you believe it to be. Whether by Law of Attraction, Self Fulfilling Prophecy, Thought Patterns, whatever. Being Jaded is accepting the blah. And I don't want blah. I want "Ahh" Like angels singing, the ultimate life revelation, the I see the light. And for once, can I type something without fucking up the words "the" and "and" throughout the entire thing?

Urban Dictionary Def for Jaded
I think they got it. Again, it's hard to know jaded until you feel it.


Here is a song/lyric video that totally gets what I feel. And conveniently, it uses "jaded".

Interesting take on Law of Attraction

I have been dabbling in the idea of Law of Attraction. I find the concept believable, but hard to practice. I follow Jonathan Fields on Twitter. He has his own blog (Asleep @the Wheel). Recently, he posted an interesting take on the Law of Attraction. His take on it reminds me of Tony Robbins. Hope you find this helpful.

P.S. I do not agree or disagree fully with the LOA--I'm testing the waters. Like I said, I do find it believable, but I'm not sure the results are as miraculous. In that aspect, I agree with JF--its self-motivation at work. But only God knows.....

http://www.jonathanfields.com/blog/ive-got-a-secret-the-law-of-attraction-is-a-lie/

Shadow Painting

I came across this guy's youtube video. I love it. It's simple, sweet, fun, and ...life at it's best. I hope you enjoy.




And here are some other funny videos from this guy just living and loving life. Hey, if he can find something to be happy about so can you!



I Love This Guy!

Reap What You Sow

I want to talk about the Positive Affirmation for today that I have on the left side of my blog (its a box after the twizzler explanation). If you are not reading on Monday, May 18th: The PA says "Reap What You Sow." In other words: you get what you plant, you get what you give, and other such phrases. So I thought....

I want to talk about this because I feel cheated at work. I was not able to get my food discount today (or for the rest of this week, for that matter) because I did not do my deep clean last week. Its a rule, so why whine (or whinge?) if I break the rule and get reprimanded? First, I do it 95% of the time. Second, I've been bringing my lunch and didn't have the time to prep today. It's like I forgot to bring it just so I could be told my problem. Because I would have never noticed the tiny sign with my name on it that is beside all the other signs which regularly loiter in this area. And third, they decided to enforce the rule on the week I honestly forget to do it! Come on! I've been a bit bummed about it and wanted to rebel. OK, Lady J how old are you again?

So, I came to blog about the PA because when I read it at first, I was like, "Duh, we hear this all the time, but is it not "You reap what you sow?" Yes, it is. Usually, you read or hear "You reap what you sow." As in, you get what you give, etc, etc... "So why is this one different?", I thought. That,my friends, is what is so important here. Instead of warning you, this phrase is telling you to do. Reap what you sow.

Do you get it? Reap what you sow. Now do what you have done--experience it to its fullest. Cause and Effect. The ripples in the pond have returned to you, my friend. And that is exactly what has happened to me. I resisted and I received resistance. I don't like doing deep cleans so I put it off until the last minute. And sometimes I run out of time-- forgetting when there is no room to forget. In turn, my manager "resisted" giving me a discount. I didn't pay much for my meal, by all means, but I did learn a lesson today. You really do reap what you sow.

So, where in your life are you putting up resistance, or being lazy,or being doubtful? Be careful or you may not like how your reaping turns out. It's like the old saying goes, "You've made your bed, now lay in it."

Happy Birthday Papa

Today is my Papa's birthday! He would be 78 years old. I love him so much. I wish he was here so I could tell him. And I still hold the day special, even if he is not here.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAPA!

And in honor of his birthday I will write one of his favorite quotes:

"It's better to be pissed off than pissed on."
--Tony Romano